No Gardens for Me

I detoxed myself from television back in 2005...so my "unplugged" experience was refreshing. I saw a woman from our group in the middle of a field close to our workshop trying to use her cell phone. It was a large empty field with her cradling her tiny metal world connector straining to reach earth. I yelled over to her "can you hear me now?" She smiled and gave me the "V" sign...a Verizon response to the question. Funny, that ad must still be running...either that or my mental powers are kickn' in :)

Omega's Falling Leaves-Photo by Linda Connolly

The morning session began with Carole leading us on a wonderful journey of meditation. I was drifting through the trance and my mind danced over images of flowers she was directing us through. She named each plant as they were arranged according to their colors. The room was quiet, music softly playing all of us lying in a dark room relaxed. As I was doing the meditation I asked a question to my spiritual guides (the ones I knew were there but have never seen) and I was given a response. My question was simple--what do you want to show or tell me at this moment? Softly I heard murmuring as if several people were talking--I started to feel my analytical mind question this--are people around me talking during meditation? Then an answer very clearly--a thought repeated over and over..."You are loved, You are missed...You are loved, You are missed" My eyes began to tear up as I thought of my parents who have both passed. I miss them dearly and I have been visited in my dreams occasionally by my father--assuring me he is well and loves me. The session ended and my pal Rachel shared what she saw, people around the room were now softly talking as it was time for a break.

Can you hear me now field? -photo by Tammy Bassrey

The afternoon session was really enlightening. Carol chose a volunteer to place into a trance and we watched the process. The volunteer was a women named Cindy who has been suffering with back pain. This is done to show us the technique used to place someone into a deep relaxed state. Then the person leading will ask questions and allow the patient to discuss what they are seeing. The person in the trance can wake anytime, although they sometimes feel anxiety, every regression is always done step by step. "Is it ok if we go back to a childhood memory?" " Is it ok if we explore what happened to you later?" Always slowly with full permission. Cindy's experience was dramatic as she was describing being crushed onto a train during the Holocaust. Torn form her children and watching her loved ones slowly die, her story was one I was very familiar with (I have personally worked with Holocaust survivors and many are friends). She was born in Poland she was as a nurse and her husband was a Dr. They eventually perished in the camp.  She was emotional and so were the rest of us observing her. She awoke and there was a question and answer time. I was touched by her sincerity. I feel as if everyone of us was beside her, our energies uniting to comfort her.
I went to lunch and sat with amazing people. I think if I only had the food on the menu to look forward to, I would have lost 20lbs easily. But the people who I conversed with were the most savoring part of each meal. We laughed and cried...and then nibbled on tofu...and lettuce...and sunflower seeds.
The afternoon session was a wonderful regression for us. I had been seeing leaves, babbling brooks, waterfalls, trees, streaming sun, fluttering shadows, rocks...and today..more of the same. Dr. Weiss told me to go to a staircase, I found a step ladder. He told me to find a garden...I found leaves and mud. He said look at the door and enter it...mine was a window. I entered and found myself in a circular brick tower with black iron gates. Crap...no people...stuck in a a stoned tower. I awoke and just felt curious. What is with me? Do I have a problem following his direction...nope I have listened to CDs and have worked with a therapist. Every induction they tell me to imagine a garden, or door or stair case... good luck...I obviously am wired to find the opposite. Oh well, I am learning to ignore them and go off on my own. Hell, mud and leaves are better than complete darkness. Maybe my garden is just Nature.
I wandered to dinner where I found myself drawn to certain energies in the room. Did I say drawn? So, am I actually starting to tune into my Vibes? Oh...so maybe something is clicking after all. ...to be continued