Training with Dr. Weiss

Ok...so months ago I signed up for a 5 day professional training with Dr. Weiss author of Many Lives Many Masters and several other past life regression books. Here is the info on the workshop site.

Brian Weiss, MD, is chairman emeritus of psychiatry at the Mount Sinai Medical Center in Miami and the nation’s leading authority on past-life regression therapy. He is the author of eight books, including the best-selling Many Lives, Many Masters. His newest book, Same Soul, Many Bodies, expands the scope of regression therapy into future lives and the Earth’s future. BrianWeiss.com

Many people sign up for his training, it happens only twice a year. The class filled up quickly- sold out. It will take place this year in NY. I put myself on the waiting list months ago--it was a shrug, no more thought went into it as I knew it was a long shot. But today I got the call--someone backed out and I AM GOING!

I am pretty thrilled and I look forward with as much excitement I had at age 5 on Christmas morning.
I know a gift is about to land in my lap!
Read on if you want to see where I am headed in October...
http://eomega.org/omega/workshops/46d5b6a9004c285734b47daf7f56ea3e/

Such a cry baby

Whenever I follow the steps into hypnosis, I feel myself lifting and drifting. It's kinda that state between awake and asleep. Obviously it relaxes the person totally, but it also calms your whole being. It's like being in some protective cocoon. It's peaceful and I am always just in silent stillness. Today I simply tried to clear my mind, no agendas. I am told often to just focus with my subconscious self on whatever appears. Not to try to imagine anything, just let the images come into my vision. Sometimes it feels like I am watching a movie from afar--or sometime it's more like I am seeing with my own eyes. Today's clear sharp vision was very unexpected. I saw myself as a baby crying. I was just dazzled by the image of myself. I held it as long as I could before my analytical mind interrupted the trance.  The statement given to me on the CD always says "you will now journey back to a memory from a past having a significant impact on your life today." Seeing myself crying and nose running as a baby- I was just astonished--that snapped me away from the image and I had to relax all over again. As I was looking at a home with a picket fence and a porch swing I saw a women up close in profile. She had medium length brown hair and reminded me of someone in the 1950's. She meant nothing to me, or better yet, I do not feel any close association with her. I then saw a car ( I don't know makes and models) the car was light green, and had a different color top, maybe white. He had on what looked like a bomber style leather jacket- his hair was kind of greasy on purpose, like he used a styling mixture. He was unloading something out of the car. It looked like gifts or boxes. As I tried to identify him- again my mind popped me away from the scene. After being unable to calm myself into a trance I awoke.
I am so new at this and I am really just trying to allow my mind to float. I guess it will take time to just experience the images that are playing out and then teach myself to analyze upon awaking.
I am always very refreshed yet disoriented. Today I was still buzzed about seeing myself as a small baby- I looked very young maybe a year old. I had on a dress of blue, I had blond hair, blue eyes. So amazing to know without a doubt it was ME. My parents have no real clear photos of me as a baby. They stopped keeping baby photos after baby number 4...I am #5 out of 8.
Why am I doing this? Much has happened in my life. I see patterns and I am always having amazing experiences that seem to just come into my life for a season. I want to know what I am supposed to take from these. I am not a teacher, nor have I ever wanted to be one...I am a learner. So this is my new "find some reason damn it" season.

Another Session

As I comfortably settled into a trance through my hypnotist Nancy, I was able to see a scene play out that became cloudy in my vision, like a smudge on well cleaned glasses. She spoke to the "smudge" referring to it as a block. She gave me clear direction at the count of 3 to tell her what number I see. I said 11. She said at the count of  three be there at age 11, what do you see. I saw myself in a classroom. I started to feel awkward in sharing my experience with her. I was unable to do what the other kids were doing. Effortlessly they excelled academically where I faltered. She spoke to this block and asked it how it applies to my life today. I shared that I felt I could not go into past lives as easily as the people in the research I was reading...hence I coud not "do it like the other kids". She helped me clear that block and on I went seeing myself in a field...the scene was again unclear, a soft unfocused haze. She again counted me down and asked what age I was. 3 was the number that appeared quickly--where are you? she asked...hiding under the bed I said, why?.. the doctor is here to draw blood for a test and I am hiding from my parents. What test? I have mono and they need my blood sample. How does this apply today? I need to protect myself. Protect yourself from what? There was an evil presence in  my bedroom...about 10 years ago. Was it a night mare? I am not sure... it felt real, it felt evil. How is this related to your life today? I feel afraid to see past lives, as this evil may lurk there. She talked to this block and had me recognize that the thoughts were connected, then she had me imagine myself sucking this thought out of my body like a big swoosy vacuum.  Then BAM, the image was clear and sharp.

I was running I was in a field.
On the count of three tell me where you are geographically.
I don't know.
What is your name? Seth. How old are you? 30.
What is going on? I see fire..a village is smoldering, I see ruins. I smell smoke.
What do you feel about this  fire? Not much.I will move you forward a bit in time  on the count of 3 where are you?
My head is spinning. It's ok, she says,  that is your mind protecting you-it's just trying to distract you, breathe deeply through this.
 On the count of 3 , where are you?
I am running...I am being hunted. I see myself from above. I have torn clothes, bare feet, a dirty shirt. I have long brown hair. My head is spinning.
It's okay breathe deeply. What is happening?
I am in a gorge...trapped...no way out. Men are behind me. They have weapons, they are wearing armor.
At the count of 3 move a bit past this scene. What do you see?
I am above my body. Men are over my body on the ground. I am dead.
I am above myself. I am safe now.
Oh...I set the village on fire.
Why?
They killed my father.
What did you learn in this lifetime as Seth.
I used people, I was a user. Violence is stupid, it causes pain.
Where are you now?
I am in a white light.

She woke me from the trance and we had a good discussion.
 She explained that I removed myself and saw myself running from above because I did not want to relive the death scene. I saw everything so vividly... myself running, there was water, a lake perhaps..not an ocean. An a thick stand of trees and a path. The trees from above looked like pine.
It was an amazing experience.

I have been meditating daily.  I follow the instructions for self hypnosis. It is easy for me as I use Nancy's tape--her voice--identical to the way she puts me into a trance in her office.

Recently I have seen a dear friend... Colin. He appeears with long gray hair, a metal head piece, wearing a purple blue tunic. He is frowning. He is dear to me in this past lifetime, as well as today. I trust him completely.
I have seen my daughter, only she feels like she is not my daughter, but an elder person over me, perhaps a parent..not sure.

I'm still learning. This has upended my entire belief system.

I no longer consider myself a Christian.
I am on a journey.
I am here on earth now.
I will be here again.